Love

I have accepted death, disease, trepidation, and trials,
as constants of life and thereafter,
swallowed my words and put my best foot forward,
but do not completely grasp their constants.
I have yet to move through the mud encrusted veneer
of time's shackles.
I have not made haste in accomplishing great goals,
in the face of what in my own opinion is the unknown,
the fluid,
the ever after.
Yet, that sickle waits for me, hanging high,
and I make no moves to dodge it.
I make no footholds in mountains, or strive to reach mountaintops,
I just remain as moss on this rock below my feet.
I remain as rain water, to lay stagnant until I'm recycled to the earth.
And all those times I wait, in deafening silence,
making no moves forward or backward,
no choices in Robert Frost's wood.
As the tall pine stands,
rooted and unwilling to leave,
I have accepted all punishments that follow
a man unwilling to reach past the circumstance that has placed him here.
I've become a heart unwilling to fit the pieces back together,
a room with no light,
a night without dawn.

For I have died, because I refuse to live,
as an artistic statement,
as a lack of reason,
as a moment of clarity,
as only half of the whole.

Sparticus

The dim light rotates through the room,
from a pane glass window, standing the test of time,
I sit and wonder on things unknown,
delve into the deep conscious of inconsistency,
all things being, all things alone.

and death walks with all men,
he just walks a little closer to me.

these moments of clarity, are my moments of insanity,
my vibrant imagination, painted think in red ink,
on padded walls, straight bars, and white fabric,
we are all unclean, we are all the divide,
a clear cut act of defiance to rule us all.

I will not go, for I am free,
and from slumber I've awoken,
to retake me.



I hear it coming,
time opts to tick by,
click, tock, go the hands of clock,
spinning in the gyre
loose and uninviting.

Goodbye Emerald City,
Goodbye Yellow Brick Road,
Goodbye unfortunate miss,
I'm going home.

I am the hum,
the slow spinning earth,
that low deep drone,
found in each flutter of your eyelids,
in each slow breeze that slides under your jacket,
creating the illusion of a sail,
in each footstep,
in each heartbeat,
in the smallest microbe
to the largest mountain,
that hum exists.
hmmmmmmmmm
hmmmmmmmm
hmmmm
the rhythm, slow and deep,
hmmmmmmmm
hmmmmmmm
hmmmm
longing and lasting,
never fading,
infinite,
constant,
and it's been there from the begining,
and it'll be there until the end.