I should be preoccupied with work but instead I've decided to hinder my progress by maintaining a blog. Sounded like an intelligent thing to do to be honest. As of the past few days I've felt little less then complete, like something is missing that's not there. You know that feeling, not necessarily that it's someone who needs to the fill the void or even food for that matter (trust me, I poop enough to know that I'm eating enough). I just need something that hasn't been there. I've been really busy with work and that's a large part of my life but I hope it doesn't become my life. I want to travel, I want to step outside of the box for once in my life. I feel like I've been too conservative. I feel like I have all these questions and none of them can be answered where I am at right now in my life. I feel like the second rate son in a family of intelligent human beings who have everything figured out. I could be misled but that's the truth. I wish I didn't have to go to school anymore, that would be nice.
Other then that, things have been well. Shows have been fun and Shawn comes back this weekend which will be nice. Nothing but Titties and Rootbeer. Should be intense. Anyway, as some of you may have heard, yes a student was killed on my campus recently. To be honest, if one more person tells me to be safe I'm going to lose my mind. I make sound decisions I believe and I try to stay out of harms way by not being unintelligent, so stop babying me. For God Fucking sakes I'm 21. If it's my time to go, for whatever reason, I'll part without complaining. At any moment I could walk out my front door and never come back. That's life, people die, things get mucked up sometimes but the beat goes on. It just doesn't end you know. Don't get me wrong I feel for the Kids family and for the tragic incident that happened but what I'm trying to say is that I'm not going to live my life in fear because of some disease that's killed a few people or because there's senseless violence in the world. I'm going to keep living the way I always have lived, the best that I can. That's all.
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